Clarity

The sky that day was grey and somber

With a happiness that turned to sadness

She went away like lightning

And the thunder of my choked up cries, they followed

And though the rain was heavy

The lightning still ignited fire in it’s tempest

She no longer the temptress

And like that it spread, a forest fire

My dreams reignited

Long forgotten in the days

Where the sky was blue

But now that blue lies with you

And in the light of day I hid away, for us

The sky with it’s clouds became a canvas

And on the grey and sullen, dirty peppered

Aged and cracked, face of mine

I opened my eyes to see the world

So that I could retake me

Not the sun or sky of a daydream happiness

But the courage to weather the storm and smile in the rain

Looking up with raindrops rolling down my chin and cheeks

Even in the miles of grey, it’s never been so clear

Always

I was looking out the window into pitch black night

No stars in the sky to indicate the looming interest of the sun

I could wait in endless night

Thinking of you

I Dream the day away

I sleep in broad daylight

To feel the warmth against my skin, no different from feeling you brushing up against me

So gently, almost as if

I reach out to hold your hand, just once more

If I could

Only if I could

I’m here in the middle of the street

Every other lamp post unlit

Walking in and out of the light

Reappearing where I don’t want to be

I start to run

Hoping to find the darkness

If that’s where you are

I’ll follow you

Dearest of mine

Disappearing I’m

Losing the part of me

Trying to find

You

Where are you?

I can’t find forever but I found never

I never thought it would be this way

It’s strange isn’t it?

I’m disappearing too

But somehow

Wherever nothing and never cease to exist

We won’t be

At least, not knowingly together

And it makes me wonder

How could it be that

Somehow, I will still always love you