Just Drinking

It’s probably just a habit

Certainly and forsooth 

Whisky glasses’ ice turn like planets

Sadly the way I move

Jagged, ridged, redd

Lagging head and dread 

I can’t tidy my mind though

Something like the way you make my heart slow 

Love as blind as the ocean deep

Dreams of you as I sleep 

Memories of us and I’m sinking

Deep breaths that keep me drowning

Underwater, thought of her 

Sought after, distant laughter

I can’t get past there 

A heart beat faster

That I don’t want to remember, it never lasts forever

© The Sad Owl

Wayward

Contorted blue hue mix swivel center black

Distorted turns like a tornado, abyss to not come back

Sink in deep waters, drown liquor, sicker than a ship, toss and turn more violently than the waves

Weather storms , black clouds thicker, lightning flicker, disappear behind the door of a mind turned into caves

Stalactites line the ceiling as water drops call to a place familiar

Echoes travel through to ask if there is still a will here

To push through pain and suffering

To meet the eyes of indifference without stuttering

To not bat a lash, or say a single thing, do not mutter

Gain strength like no other

And sacrifice the lover

Who never loved themselves

© The Sad Owl

Caught the Quarantine

What was it that I saw that night

Small chill in the wind, icy words took flight

I wondered or perhaps wandered, aimlessly

Without a notion of the anger it gave me

Walking into the dark in a frame till we

Painted over the past

Was it the regrets still eating their last

If the supper of sin were not so tempestuous

Can we forget it? These memories infectious

Like a virus, spreading so quickly between the gyri and every sulcus

To be so alone and not alone when the same, I sulk for us

Can I ask? Are you scared, even just a little?

That something in the past still leaves you riddled

With hope that it will come to pass

And that we’ll be moving on at last

Somewhere in the stars I made many wishes

But I just don’t see them the way I used to

© The Sad Owl

The Birds

We are family

Flock and fairly

To be so weary

Wearily reefing

Cutting the wind

Lights be dimmed

Arranged in our seating

Did I lose you in our organization

Was it the impulsive me with imagination

That you thought so highly of and sought after

While I aimlessly fought for your smiles and laughter

Does it scare you now that I will most probably never return

And that the flames of our love and kisses of lust, will never once more burn

© The Sad Owl

Alive in the Moonlight

You want the sun while I want the rain

You want the love and I want the pain 

You want your space and I want to breathe

As I suffocate, you ask me to stay but I need to leave

You and I are a different breed

We are not the same in the way that we bleed

You wait for the rainbow after 

I only want an infinite night 

You’re a golden sun of laughter

I’m all teary stars with streaks of moonlight

Now angry with me, red hot vermillion

While I’m still blue, cold lights spread into millions 

My eyes are sleepy when you kiss me

The highs and lows in an eclipse we…

Are sure to go our separate ways 

I’m for the nights and you’re for the days 

You are my only but all my dreams won’t let me stay

We’ll be in each other’s nightmares that never go away

© The Sad Owl

Is This Heartbreak?

There is a hole, heart blackened accent

Happy accident

Tears the soul apart, all when it went

The imminent 

Just like coal, start a fire in its burnt scent 

Not heaven sent

Hellish laughter followed after

Lost in math that hath no number 

Relished drafter, final product for her

Words that can only count the ways I loved you 

© The Sad Owl

Clyde Ride

Drunken stupor in times bluer than a starless night sky

Sunken deep time becomes a blur and begs the question, I

No, that’s a lie

As I wonder why

I’m feeling bad about the way that I’m living

Too young to not rest in peace 

Too old to not have found it yet 

Too fast to stop so I cannot cease

Chasing dreams on which I bet

The past with you that had the keys

Stolen, driven golden, I see the sunset

But that was then

And in the end 

You’re too far in the rearview to look back now

© The Sad Owl

In Your Absence

Slow drawn breath

Icy meander sliding down the corner of your mouth

The last smile left… 

Reflections in a river that is a single tear coming out 

Such a small world that left the universe where I lived

No longer looking back at my eyes now 

Holding on to something contrived as it no longer is

Yeah, all the things we did 

I can go back to asking myself just how 

Some die young while the others can only wish 

To not wilt so willfully 

Filled with hurt in me 

A house that is no home to me

As I grow alone I’ll be 

Stronger but still homesick

From the only place I knew

There with you

Darling

© The Sad Owl